rolpa

From: "kshitiz shrestha"
To:, ?????@hotmail.com,
Subject: ROLPA
Date: Tue, 03 Oct 2006 15:15:39 +0545

Rolpa trip was kind of self-transformation type. You know me. Searching something, I travel here and there. I don’t know what I m exactly searching. But every place I go, I find something new. That makes me to think about self-transformation. For now i m engaged in transformation of myself.

It was not actually hard trek…but we walked for 5 days in a row and 4 days in bus.
in rain...in swet... through hills ..accross rivers. so many time our cloths wet and dried in our body itself. we did’t care. A cup of black tea was a part of heaven. Lunch and dinner in a same plate,same time. “Eat guys ..we may not get food tommorow”. So many leeches....you know one day i cud not sit for long toilet.... In jungles i feared. Like harry potter type jungles...........dark and lost in mist.

Above all those were not the things which we were there to see.

10 years of conflict and the birthplace of maoism. Maoism . One of my friend told me to take my dairy and write every thing in detail. But i was sure it will be heavy ,so i denied. she told me than take some chalks to write in walls. For my surprise i found no such solid walls to write. All either destroyed or cracked. I returned nothing to write......nothing written.

Few moments::

(1) from Liwang we need to walk for 2 days to reach thawang"
and with us was one maoist as our guide to thawing. He was in party for 7 yrs when his 6 friends killed by army. He is working as a teacher of janabadi sahid smriti vidhylaya (thawang) We call him Madan sir. I can recall his simplicity whole life. I loved him for his genuine respect to us.
" I was so bored, you know , separated from my beloved ones, lonely i use to feel. You people came, I felt you are the one whom I was waiting for" he told us. Separated from his wife and sons from many yrs. " But i m in war, so it should not matter" his devotion and selflessness...
every moments with him have virtue to keep in my life book. Oh! endless to talk about him.

(2) Janabadi sahid smriti vidyalaya:
School run by Maoist for the children of their martyiers. When we were there it was vacation for Aam sava of moist in liwang,rolpa. Only 6 children were there. We played with them,talked and ate with them. They were so happy to see us. So glad and so free. What made me panic was the sense of revenge in there tiny eyes. Madan sir speaks "If you ll see, your father and mother being shot in front of you ..then?" The small mind knows no political cause to kill their parents like that. And revenge is only thing. I cried silently.
"Bisesta Gharti" smallest among all, 5 yrs kid. I can remember the last glance of him.
bisesta goti khelcha,
bisesta nakh ko sigan puch cha,
bisesta pahad chadcha,
bisista hami lai gijyau cha,
bisesta ko bisesta le
hami lai lajjit banau cha.
His passion to serve country.......his anger to kill his fathers killer.
Small heaven like school, placed in utopian hill have no power to erase traces of war.

(3) Few PLA (Peoples liberation army)
found us shameless. Somehow capitalist and not to serve country. No patroitism.
Own life, own family, own career etc. "Tapai pani yuva, ma pani yuva" Showing his broken hand:Comrade Aakas.

Back to Sulichaur, Rolpa, our guide was Comrade Pahad, jana militia.
I found him innocent...not politically aware. I asked him " What have you hoped after Maoist will go to government?"
bato khanchu hola...


For so many things which I have read...and then I saw there made me imprisoned
in some heavy thoughts. I took it as steps for self-transformation. Only thing that was bothering me was 10 yrs of prejudices.

In Bhaluwang..Dang when bus stopped for short toilet break. I looked back to my bus. Two red lights at its back. Few people murmuring. Few armed Maoist.
I remembered PALPASA CAFE.

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From: “Aasha Pandey”
Sent: Sunday, October 8, 2006 12:27 AM
To: greendestination@hotmail.com
RE: ROLPA

My first thought after reading this: will your self be transferred again if u see and get that close to the another side? Did u see something behind those the selflessness and innocence?
There was fear I know that............revenge is in everyone’s eyes...which part u r seeing changes everything. Someone can hate him for everything u loved about him...........for his simplicity and his ignorance. I have 10 years of prejudice and I wont change them. I cant...You loved him for his genuine respect to u... Some can hate him for losing that respect for human life ........
He may call that war.....some may not know about war. They only know about the pain of war.
so his simplicity or his ignorance justifies his war. He may be bored by the separation from his loved ones. Some may be destroyed. One truth...which ever be the side only innocent suffer...children...that transforms something.
War has produced many moist eyes....silent....waiting for revenge.
his ignorance and simplicity and devotion and selflessness has been successful to produce many hearts nd many homes which are no more simple, ignorant and selfless.
all this may be my 10 years of prejudice......
but i am waiting for the result of their patriotism and their broken arms.....
may their selfless deeds and ignorance remove the revenge in their own children eyes
may their devotion and simplicity make their children look at them with pride and gratitude
may their children find many solid walls to write the glorified deeds of their fathers.
may that change the 10 years of prejudice.

may that change everythin......
like u they also dont know what they r searching....may everyone find that.
after all the conflict ....may they retain their innocence....and get more than just" bato khanne".

darr ta lagyo hola haina......tyesto jungle ma janda....transformation ko barema vannu......
someone is need of it..........